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Ryan Ross is probably wandering a corn field right now with no idea why he suddenly feels the weight of the world lift off his shoulders

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#realized this month marks ten years of having this blog #still kinda hate this website/social media/internet culture right now but #i'm too sentimental to not say anything #it's strange to have this archive of my interests and thoughts and feelings as i've changed so much #i mean i made this blog at age 14 just out of pure boredom #didn't use it a lot in the beginning but that quickly changed #looking back i wish i would have spent far less time on here #especially when it would upset me or stress me out #but now i know that i need to stay away from purposefully stressing myself out with petty nonsense #since it does not serve me at all #taking care of myself is still my number one priority #still growing evolving and changing #still haven't been able to make new friends yet #still dissatisfied with where i am in life #wish i could share my heart with someone special #but i'll get there eventually #that's what i keep telling myself anyway #all in all i'm still a million times better than i was months ago #i'm more functional and have more self worth than ever before #still working on the old self esteem issues #but these things take time #but even when i look back to how i was last year..i'm not at all the same person #i don't even talk the same #i'm no longer caught up with trying to prove something to i don't even know who that i'm cool or likeable #i'm not just referencing whatever stupid meme is currently popular to show that i'm funny and in touch anymore #not just bc i don't even know what the current memes are due to my lack of social media presence but #i just want to be myself #and i'm still trying to understand what that is #still have no clue how i'm going to put myself out there to make new friends without the use of social media and meet-new-people apps #since they make me have low self-esteem and low esteem for everyone else
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Why do I keep telling myself things are going to get better. My affirmations are all starting to sound like lies again. I’m tired of putting in effort only to continue to feel this way and be all alone. I feel like I am the most sensitive person on the planet. I’m tired of being depressed on the verge of tears 24/7. I can’t even sleep at night bc of the cats. They’re tired of being in my tiny studio apartment and so am I. But will I even be able to afford a bigger place when my lease is up? I’m having a lot of doubt.

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Why do people on here romanticize this website like it’s so much better than other social media. It’s all stupid garbage. Social media was a mistake.

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privatejoker:

we are all very lonely and desperate for friendship i dont think you will really embarrass yourself by unabashedly seeking it out. i think you will find many other people are also looking for it. people will gravitate towards you if you just let them. its going to be fine

#having no friends rn is really starting to get to me… #how do I meet new people in a pandemic? #I’m spending way less time online these days and I don’t like meet-new-people apps #I love myself more than I probably ever have before #and I’ve been realizing all the red flags and things I should have done differently in my past friendship #I’m ready to meet new ppl and make friends but I just don’t know how right now #I’ve been trying to remain hopeful #but I must admit I’ve been a little down lately #this month has felt like the month that never ends #I feel like I’m in a waiting period rn #waiting until my lease is up this summer so I can hopefully move out of my studio and into a bigger apartment #waiting for covid stuff to get better #waiting for springtime so I’m motivated to be outside and hike #I don’t hate winter like I do summer but I think I’m ready for winter to be over #and I’m so broke too #I’m trying to save money so I can move but it’s difficult bc I don’t make nearly as much as I did at my old job #and I went thru pretty much all my savings last year when I wasn’t working for a few months #I’m trying to patient with myself and the rest of the world #but it’s becoming difficult #despite feeling very lonely and wishing I had a friend #I feel good and confident knowing I have no desire whatsoever to hit up my former best friend #looking back it was so insanely unhealthy #and at the end of the day he wanted my attention and knew I’d give it to him #got a text from him last weekend saying how I was ‘the best thing that ever happened’ to him #like please lmao #and he said he would say anything to have me in his life again or work with me to make it happen and I’m like #well you obviously have not changed at all #I always thought I was the one who would spiral about something like this #well well well how the turn tables
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luthienne:

Danusha Laméris, Bonfire Opera: Poems

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God is real

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I played it a very reasonable 359 times. As is my right.

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favorite tweets

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